Good morning. I’m trying to get back on track with the Miracle Morning. I’m not sure why I’m struggling so much to stay on track. Part of it may be the changing of the seasons. The other part, I know, is because I am eager to move forward with my illustration career. It sounds so pretentious to say that because I know right now or even for the next few years, this will not be a “career” in the true sense of the word. I really ought to say “illustration side gig”!

But anyway, my point is that the 65 minutes it takes to complete the Miracle Morning feels like 65 minutes I could be using to move along in the side gig. Except that… I’m feeling a little lost regarding next steps with that too!

Here’s where I’m at- I create an index card every day. I just completed number 95 of 100!! That kind of blows me away, btw. I have stuck with the project every single day for 95 days. I know that when I reach 100, I’ll need to spend a little time reflecting on the process and talking about what made it work, what I learned from it and what I’ll carry with me.

Once I complete the project, I want to create some larger pieces to develop into prints that I can sell on Etsy. At the moment, I’m a little lost as to what the subjects of the drawings will be. I’m 99% sure that I want to continue with my cute little animals- after all, that is why I developed them. They’re cute and I can tell stories about them which I love. I think I’m afraid! Afraid to work big, afraid to actually have something to sell and be rejected, afraid that everything I do looks completely amateurish.

What I told myself going into this process was that it’s not the best artists who become successful, it’s the persistent artists who know how to build a following. That is just as much what I do on Instagram with this challenge as it is about the actual index cards- it’s connection and persistence.

My own fears are just fears and if I truly want this as I say I do, I will have to move forward IN SPITE of my fears.